Strange Day

I’ve felt very introspective today. I keep thinking of things I want to do, or want to be able to do, thinking about skills I’d like to have. It’s all very sad really, because I have a lot of things on my plate right now as it is. Seems like I do this every time things get busy, wish I could do anything besides the half-done project in front of me.

It comes down, I think, to just not liking long projects. I like working on projects for a long time (sequencial hours usually), but if it takes lots and lots of sessions to do it, I feel deep pain. I get to a point where I feel like progress isn’t being made fast enough, and the whole thing may not be worth it. Communication plays a big role in this I’m sure, and my lack of communication with others involved, asking for help at appropriate times.

I’ve just realized that this is all very vague, so let me paint a picture of sorts…

I have a good list of things that need to be done at home: building a pantry, building a cabinet, adding a lock, replacing electrical outlets, putting lights up in the garage, putting wallboard up in the garage, cleaning up the office, organization of misc. crap in the attic… the list continues.

It’s not getting done because other things get in the way. I need to treat each of these things as individual projects instead of lumping them into the “Home Projects” category, because the way it is now, I’d much rather play some asinine video game than think about all that stuff.

Building a schedule that can be kept, that is my priority, then everything else can fall into place.